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My Memory Fails Me

My brain is trying to protect me.

That’s what my research tells me.

I want desperately to remember.

I continue to look for the key.

I don’t know what I would do if I quit looking.

Perish?

Fall into a depressive state even worse than the one I am in now?

I try so hard to remember.

I try so hard to acknowledge.

I don’t want to repeat what was learned.

I fight it everyday.

Yet, still……

My memory fails me.

 

CPTSD Recovery

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Wife. Mother. Educator. Craft Nerd. Tree hugger. Animal lover. Coffee Lover. Daughter of a narcissistic mother in Recovery from CPTSD.

My Youtube channel is where I will sometimes combine ASMR format with the sharing of my story.

I am working on a series of videos that focus on Recovery from CPTSD.

The name of my youtube channel/blog is meant to have a double meaning. I am poking holes physically as I crochet, but also figuratively, as in I'm poking holes into the stories I've always believed about my family (or was taught to believe), and discovering the real truth.

Crochet became a form of meditation for me to get me through some of my darkest moments. I hope you find it relaxing.

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