My brain is trying to protect me.

That’s what my research tells me.

I want desperately to remember.

I continue to look for the key.

I don’t know what I would do if I quit looking.

Perish?

Fall into a depressive state even worse than the one I am in now?

I try so hard to remember.

I try so hard to acknowledge.

I don’t want to repeat what was learned.

I fight it everyday.

Yet, still……

My memory fails me.