I Feel Like I Did Something Wrong

Whenever I get this particular feeling in the pit of my stomach, I literally feel like I’ve done something wrong. I begin to think back to things that I have done throughout the day that could have caused this feeling to occur. This feeling is different though. This feeling isn’t from something that happened today. […]

Complex PTSD – Bringing the Past into the Present

I keep having these thoughts that I need to stop obsessing over my family. Then I remind myself that I’m not obsessing, I have Complex PTSD (cptsd). The nature of cptsd is that our traumatic past keeps a hold on us, not the other way around. It’s not that we can’t let go of the […]

I’m Having an Emotional Flashback

Not feeling so good this morning. I feel less than and like I’m not good enough. I’m having an emotional flashback. I always try to figure out what triggered me to feel this way. It helps me to understand myself and my cptsd better. Before I started feeling this way I was telling myself that […]

CPTSD Warrior Self Care Routine

As promised I am providing you with a downloadable copy of the CPTSD Warrior Self Care Routine. This routine was made to help me reduce my symptoms of CPTSD. If you haven’t watched the video yet where I explain how I use this checklist see the video at end of this blog post. I have […]

Triggered by Husband’s Face

Sunday, May 20th, 2018 Yesterday, the look on my husband’s face threw me into a doozy of an emotional flashback. I was crying on the beach during our walk. Permeating the flashback were thoughts of my dad. Nothing specific, just kept thinking of him. I always think that when somebody’s facial expressions put me into […]

My Body Remembers – Somatic Flashbacks

I think somebody hurt me really bad when I was little…too little to remember. I can’t be sure who, but at such a young age it can only be somebody from my immediate family of origin. I think it was either my narcissistic mother, or my 2nd eldest sister who I believe is a malignant […]