Can a Narcissist Do Better?

Trying to come to terms with this whole no contact thing. Am I in this for life, or am I waiting until I feel stronger? Was my mom doing the best that she could? You know the whole “when you know better you do better”? Was she doing the best she knew how? Was she […]

Antidepressants for CPTSD – Controversial Subject?

I recently posted a video on my youtube channel that was a catch up video, and in that video I talked about the latest hoovering attempt by my golden child sister, self care, and future video content ideas. Link to the video is located at the end of blog post. I also talk about antidepressants […]

My Body Remembers – Somatic Flashbacks

I think somebody hurt me really bad when I was little…too little to remember. I can’t be sure who, but at such a young age it can only be somebody from my immediate family of origin. I think it was either my narcissistic mother, or my 2nd eldest sister who I believe is a malignant […]

Narcissism: I'm the Lost Child of my family

I think I was wrong about being a former golden child. I don’t think I ever was. I was/am the lost child. I was/am shy and introverted. I worshiped my narcissistic mother and narcissistic golden child sister so they would love me. When I began to speak up and call them on their bullshit, they […]

Narcissism: Afraid and Confused

I’m feeling confused. I feel this way when I try to sink back into the ignorance I’ve lived my life in before the discovery. The discovery that I am the daughter of a narcissistic mother. It’s a pretty big thing to wrap your head around. I’m afraid sometimes to continue because I’m afraid of what […]

Narcissism: The big discovery

I’ve been trying to remember what prompted me to look into my mother’s behaviour while I was growing up. I guess I’m looking for a way to mark the beginning of the big discovery. Here is a little background on the past few months. I’d been diagnosed with depression and anxiety (again) last March (2014). […]