golden child - Healing from CPTSD

Watch "A Weekend with my Narcissistic In-Laws" on YouTube

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I just got back from a weekend with my narcissistic in-laws. My narcissistic father in-law married his narcissistic girlfriend. Once again, I am still realizing the shots they threw in their sick covert manner. I so wish I had recorded the toasts. All of her families’ toasts, including her own, were about what she/they had […]

My Scapegoat Sister – "It isn't just the golden children that become narcissists"

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Growing up, we were close, both in age, and emotionally. We have always been mistaken as twins, and still to this day somebody will call one of us by the other’s name. I noticed things changing when she became a teenager and was drinking a lot and getting into trouble. Contrary to what you hear about […]

When the Narcissistic Mother Hoovers

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I got a text from my narcissistic mother on Sunday. I haven’t received any communication from her for over a year because I had her blocked from my phone. Somehow, she got through anyway. I am feeling very triggered by this. I keep catching myself getting pulled into an emotional flashback several times a day. […]

Dysfunctional Family Roles: The Lost Child

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I am the lost child of my dysfunctional family. This is an introduction to role of the lost child in a dysfunctional family. Children from dysfunctional families who have been traumatically abused or abandoned develop Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD).

No Contact

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My journal entries following the discovery that my mother was a narcissist. This is after the discard when I am moving out of my narcissistic mother’s home, going through withdrawal from a/d’s, and eventually going no contact. June 27th/15 – Sept 17/15.

My Dysfunctional Family

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In this video I discuss the different aspects of my narcissistic family and the roles different family members played.