I’m not really sure where to start. I am at the mere beginning of this long journey of discovery.

I am the daughter of a narcissistic mother. From what I’ve read, my mother is a textbook case of narcissistic personality disorder.

I come from a family of 6 children. I am the youngest of 5 girls. We all have 1 baby brother. My mom made it seem like she gave my father the ultimate gift by having my brother for him, after all of us girls.

I was once a golden child, but have only recently discovered, at the age of 46, that I have been demoted to scape goat. I believe the demotion began, 5 years ago, shortly after my Father passed away. I was his baby girl. We were close. I noticed both my mother, and one of my sisters, the other golden child, pulling away from me.

It took moving back home, being under the same roof as my mother, to bring about this whole realization. I moved back into my mother’s home, on a temporary basis, with my husband and my young son. We moved back to my hometown, and she allowed us to stay with her until we were able to purchase a home of our own. We are now renting until we can purchase a home of our own. We had the down payment, we just needed to secure jobs in order to secure a mortgage.

I am using this blog to help me heal. I hope it will also help others heal.

~ Poking Holes ~